| HOLLOW HEAD |
[Sep. 21st, 2006|09:53 pm] |
I just got home from work today.. felt like coming home early and perhaps think of new stuff to paint. the last time i held a brush and used oil was about 6 months ago. gotta get my blood to loosen up and work.
About work, wel it's fine. I don't earn as much but still is fine. there are a lot of things goin on lately.
I have a seven yr old student that acts and talks like invader zim. once you turn your back on him he's gone. Rest assured he'd be somewhere else bothering some other teacher lolz.
ang kukulit nila! :P
I've been teaching kids to understand symbols and stuff. i hope i was making progress when i organized a poster making contest last week.
I've been addicted to a cyber disease called DoTA. it's a modification of warcraft III
but you only get to control your heroes. it's just so cool. however it sucks away my budget and my time for other things.
I hope I hear about my friends from UP more often. I only go to work 3 times a week anyway.
Guys send me neat things to read. I've been trying to juggle my brain to get a thing or two from it. |
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| I missed LJ |
[Aug. 10th, 2006|05:41 pm] |
hello readers, friends and countrymen. welcome to another mediocre episode of a day in the life of emon.
here are a few updates so you guys could catch up:
1. no longer a call center agent. I ditched the bastards 3 months ago.
2. never painted any new paintings since dec of 2005 but worked on an assemblage.
3. has a girlfriend now (for almost a year na :)
4. still doesn't have a ferrari or any car for that matter.
5. still uninspired and insignificant.
6. wala pa ring pera.
7. dehins pa rin pogi pero goli.
8. went straight back to teaching little kids since june of this year.
9. may sweldo na every 15 days, so guys text me of you wanna drink. di ko kayo lilibre.
10. I've been living clean for 13 months now.
11. my new favorite expression is "woah Jesus Christ is sOooo CoOl!"
12. my new idol is Peng Medina for his role in "Deathrow"
(the scene with cogie domingo was so hot)
13. my cousin just died today unfortunately.
14. Mahaba pa rin ang buhok. |
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| it's been 4 months |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|11:24 am] |
hello to all lj readers.
i haven't updated this blog since god knows when.
but now that i have the time, spare me a minute.
ok first of all i missed you guys kara, mia, zean fa peeps luv y'all.
i've been embraced and now i'm a child of the night.
having a job has it's ups and downs.
the corporate setup eats away my life day by day.
but i need to stay in this suicidal cycle for a little bit longer.
i'm young and i have a lot of plans, for now this would have to do.
so pardon me people if i haven't shot u guys an email or i have not any new
works to show u. i don't have the time. for now.
i miss holding a brush in my hand. the smell of linseed oil and turpentine.
guys balitaan niyo ako. namimis ko kayo. |
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| my vampire stats |
[Sep. 10th, 2005|07:32 pm] |
 | You scored as Toreador. You belong to the Toreador bloodline. Often regarded as vain or shallow, the Toreador are blessed with a striking, almost supernatural beauty. Toreador are so driven by the pursuit of beauty that they are often highly connected with art, music, or theater. While they do have a uncanny ability to seduce and manipulate mortals, many other vampires simply dismiss them as decadant pretty-boys.
Toreador | | 83% | Brujah | | 79% | Malkavian | | 75% | Tremere | | 71% | Gangrel | | 58% | Nosferatu | | 50% | Ventrue | | 46% | </td>
What vampire clan do you belong to?
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| I'm In love and I hope she is too... |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|01:05 am] |
the past week at megamall has been really full of surprises.
I've met a lot of new faces done a lot of things.
then she came... with that look and that smile on her face.
then we talked and talked and found out a lot about ourselves. usual story.
i've known her for a week now officially...
I can't stop thinkin of her...
somehow i can't manage to pull myself together and just stop this madness...
she's on the rebound and i fear the worst.
God I think I love her!
Katherine Louise De vera Sison I am so in love with you!!!
Each moment we spend is bliss... each second makes me love you more and more and more.
I don't wanna shatter into a million pieces... again. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 11th, 2005|11:45 am] |
Peter potter paint me a picture.
Nothing in it but rants and hatreds of everyone who wants to be a star,
which is? everyone!!! :P
i dunno what i'm doing with my life.
but i do think i'm actually defeating the purpose of living.
as I wilt, wither and burn...
Watch me set myself ablaze...
Watch my organic self change in front of you...
Watch me crumble into useless tidbits...
Only to remind you that I was alive. |
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| obstruct and destruct |
[Aug. 3rd, 2005|11:32 am] |
cough syrup shit... shove it down my throught once more and yoo iz e gonnah!
i'd rather smoke weed than take medicine. but no weed here. times are hard.
Art attack fart attack. Wonder when will i get to have the former.
Does the world really own the World Bank? If so, can i borrow money from it?
If you were Bill Gates could you actually finish all the money you have (stocks converted to cash is included)
Would you buy mexico? or Cuba perhaps?
Is there really any sense into helping individuals other than yourself?
Is there A god? Why can't there be two gods? If there's another is he a better God than this one?
Does clorophyll make Green Tea green?
so do you drink clorophyll everytime you have a cup?
will you grow branches and leaves and shit like that?
Is Chesca Roces single?
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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|04:34 am] |
i haven't updated this blog that much lately.
I think i should love this blog more than that on friendster.
Nothin much done today.
Just played darts and still I aint getting any better.
But hell it's fun.
I swapped my older pins with better ones. those ones that have retractinc points
decreasing the chances of your pin bouncing off the boards.
but yeah who else here gives a Sh*t about darts anyway.
meetings took place btw about the mural stuff that we'r about to do.
Phillip Morriss in a few more months.
I should get busy.
the ladies just have to wait lolz ;P |
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| dart boards |
[Jul. 11th, 2005|02:07 am] |
so being the sissy that i am and a bum at the moment, i've decided to engage into an athletic activity.
I thought of swimming at first but nah, my lungs couldn't handle it.
so next best thing was playing darts
it's nice.
no one will box you out, trip you while you're running or throw a ball at your face if you're a very good player.
just you, your pins and your dartboards.
i'm not good at it yet though and the equipment is quite costly.
but i have my pins now. :D
my arms hurt like hell after a day of playing.
I's like jacking off for one day straight. lolz
it's a perfect game for insomniacs like me :D
oh well. i have to get a break now. more pins to throw tomorrow :D yay! |
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| ah libis |
[Jul. 11th, 2005|01:45 am] |
been a while since i went out of d' mountains. AHhhh libis is so nice. a feast for the senses i must say.
I saw jong. the only time i saw jong without andy.
I was with my older (senior) friends. my kuyas... can't go anywhere really.
I was just out for coffee :D
and fack it was yosef's gig. I missed it. deyumn.
congrats to yosef though. :D I missed you people from UP.
i was buggin kuya erwin to check out the basement haven't been there but i heard a lot about it (evil deeds)
he said he can't. one of his students might catch him messing around.
so yeah... we ditched the basement. and i thought maybe mia and eyong are comin over for the gig.
moments later...
from the elevator i saw eyong and mia lolz and a few mins after that, some girl ran to kuya erwin and was shouting "sir sir" hahahhahahaha
I was thinkin maybe i should've thought of becoming a millionaire that night.
oh oh and there's this new place in cubao. it's an alternative hangout spot. you guys should check it out.
it's at the old marikina shoe expo. near bellini's.
they have antique shops, ukay ukay and yes an extension of the boston gallery. |
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| haaaayyy..... |
[Jun. 30th, 2005|07:50 am] |
all I can do is sigh...
I'm runnin out of options... artistic integrity over necessity...
Which would i choose...
there's been so much on my mind lately...
I had my hair cut the other day...
My head feels light...
I hope it helps with the thinking...
strategize... |
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| I'm so tired of this... |
[Jun. 30th, 2005|07:48 am] |
I miss everyone... I should go to UP and visit...
I'm too lazy to work despite 2 other deadlines
I'm dead broke..
Damn I need to do sumthin about this... |
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| "LUNA DE MIEL" (just a lingering thought... sorry guys) |
[Jun. 16th, 2005|04:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
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The sky is nothing but pitch black.
An empty blanket without its jewels.
No signs of light.
No signs of life.
My head was raised towards mother moon.
Seeking solace from a place now void and dark.
No signs of freedom.
No signs of hope.
I raised my hands higher and higher still.
To the heavens and its unending end.
No signs of boundaries.
No plans nor goals.
Into your hands I place my soul.
To let it die or let it grow
No mumbles were heard...
No actions undone...
But in nights like this I wished you safe.
In nights like this I thanked you.
In nights like this I prayed to God.
In nights like this I needed you.
And to the night I offer my mortality
to the night I offer my lust
and to the night I offer my sanity
but i love you... 'til i turn to dust... |
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[Jun. 10th, 2005|08:04 pm] |
I went out for a walk this afternoon. It has been aeons since i did that mainly becaus i'm asleep around this hour. but now i ain't.
My body is weak. It has always been this way since the last time I had someone.
I'm not saying I'm an incubus either FOOL! lol
I get tired too easily, sometimes i surprise myself that i only did so little yet
my body craves for the comfort of a bed.
I'm lazy. Emon the sloth they call me.
Lookin at my neighbours well I can sometimes tell why they have no appreciation for the arts.
I think people tend to feed their spiritual and aesthetic needs right after they take care of their basic necessities.
But of course there are cultural exceptions to that.
San Jose St. has always been this way. 'cept for a few changes.
you should see the streets. MAAAAAAN when me and my friends were young we weren't that many.
I was out walkin right? shortly after the roads were closed, there was this swarm of kids.
i was drawn back with what i have seen. man my neighbors were good. lol
I was thinkin how do the kids feed now that the tricycle business is congested? a driver hardly earns 200 pesos a day, and that amount won't cut it. plus the kids should go to school anytime soon.
Man we're goin to the pigs.
And if that's not enough a lot of my female neighbors have been disappearing lately. most of 'em went abroad to work as entertainers or caretakers or maids or whatever.
the filipinos are mere products of labor. it's hurts ta think this way but it's true.
They have this sense of colonial utopia. freedom in planes.
filipinas are flowers just right for the picking... too bad the japanese had to do it.
It's driving me nuts thinking about this and i dunno what to do.
Somehow there should be a cooperative system that would coordinate all people from this street to make life a little better for everyone.
I can't be a public speaker. I live on my rights too damn much.
Not a lot of them would listen if and when I try to talk.
I was thinkin of doin as much with my free time. Somehow I need a template of some sort so I could easily follow the program. Build a stronger community by devoting time for the community. I was thinkin of a business wherein the profits would definitely go to health supplies and other benefits for the street or our barangay at least.
A business would mean well especially to those people who has so much idle time. I hate to see people bummin around. only I can do that lolz :D
any suggestions? |
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| SHET HAPPENS |
[Jun. 10th, 2005|03:20 am] |
| [ | music |
| | EYE OF THE TIGER LOLZ | ] |
I got kicked out of school and it sucks.
I don't have any chance of graduatin 'til like 4 years from now or so.
Damn. when i think about it. all those countless nights of effort for plates,
those days when you had to go through it all just to get to yer stoopid class.
I threw it all away.
For now my aspirations of being a college professor would not be. I hate it.
Time to start anew. Right now, my art is all I have. And all I can do is nurture my creativity or whatever's left of it at least.
But in spite all these,
Do I feel outclassed? no. I just feel underachieved.
Do I feel outwitted? no. I just fear that I rot in solitary hell.
Do i feel disappointed? yes. primarily with myself.
Do I feel hopeless? no. I never envisioned myself to be in shambles of any form.
I've come to appreciate a myriad of things that I can do with my time.
To my college: "just you wait" "from the ashes I will rise and dance on top of yer heads"
Am I sourgraping? Probably yes.
Am I having regrets? NEVER!!! |
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| hahahahaha |
[Jun. 5th, 2005|04:54 am] |
I HAD NO DOSE OF ALCOHOL TODAY HAHAHAHAHA :D
BUT I'M FRICK'N SHAKIN'. DEMMIT!
I should go and write more poems or nonsensical paragraphs this coming days. I feel that my level of articulation is slowly goin down the drain. ugh!
I hope my plea will be approved. demmit.
I wanna go back ta skewl. skewl is kewl.
I hafta remind myself to sketch more often. damn this entry sounds like a resolution. well maybe it is.
Well, if I am to go serious I mean really serious about my art crap. then I may have to minimize my social life. my friends my friends. I hope you understand. I have to feed and if I am to go anywhere, I've ta do all these things unconditionally. Forcing discipline into my lazy system.
This is hard. ugh! I need inspritation and i need it now :D
ciao for now paizanos! i've ta sketch yipee! |
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| shapesh*fter |
[Jun. 5th, 2005|04:43 am] |
| [ | mood |
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Dude It's not what you think. I'm tellin ya it ain't.
I understand the risks. and i'm sorry.
your wishes will be done don't worry.
labyu pare! but i 'm just a bit disappointed
i'm better than that. ok? so cool it... |
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| today today |
[Jun. 4th, 2005|03:57 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  angry | ] |
I went ta school! HAHAHAHAHA told you guys i'd enroll.
but the sad thing is? the council is talkin bout my case. I'm not really sure
If they're really plannin to lemme come back.
I wish I wish I wish.
Saw someone today. ignored me, i think she did. no "Hi"s no "Hello"s.
Oh Geez a storm is brewin' up.
Gotta get my stuff out of the studio. it might flood.
My street by the way has been undergoing renovations.
M.W.S.S. says "Laying Pipelines for The Future"
That's a load of BULL CRAP!
The bastards turned the pressure up so high, a lot of houshold pipelines
actually bursted.
Now our street looks like this ghetto waterworld yipee! Damn it!
Now my studio's a mess.
You see, one of my neighbors pipelines actually go around in my studio.
their old and withered pipes cannot take the abuse.
Almost all my stuff are soakin' wet.
Good thing i use oilpaint.
but nah. they could've spared me from the trouble.
DAMN YOU M.W.S.S.!!! I'mma beat yo asses fo this ya bitches!
*speaks in a chines jeet kune do master voice*
"you killed ma mastah! Now you'll feel the wrath of mah Iron tounge KYAAAA!" |
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| alcohol tolerant |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|02:14 am] |
it's been my 12th straight day of drinkin beer.
I may need liver aid soon.
bah! nonsense!
who wants to live alone anywayz. |
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